My kids are just not how I want my kids to be. They prefer their main caretaker more to their mum.
The caretakers are not doing what I wish they do. We do not speak the same language.
I am a failure. People think I'm a lousy mother. I think I'm a lousy mum.
I'm as unsuccessful as a person could get. There is no meaning in living this lousy unsuccessful life at all.
I wish I'm dead. Then they can do whatever they want to do.
Then i don't have to work. The kids will still be loved by the people that spoil them.
It will be perfect.
A simple wish. But so hard to fulfill.